#Even if there are Some similarities to the last time I forcefully refixated there are still enough differences to make for interesting data
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#Doodles#ADHD#I was Very nice to my fixation - when it was fixated on the thing I wanted it to be lol#Honestly I wasn't even that mean about the two (2!!) other things it wanted to brain-focus on#Mad about it but in that dopamine way lol#''Can we please get dopamine from this thing and not those other things? Please'' ''Lol''#That is not an answer!#It is honestly still really interesting data :0#I've still never successfully forced a fixation but this is at least the second time I've continued a falling fixation#I wonder what the through-line is hahaha <knows the through-line#I was actually very resistant to fixating on the other things because my pride got in the way again lol#To the point where I didn't even write them down until recently pffft yeah that's how that works#''If I don't write them down then they don't count'' Uh Huh#Even if there are Some similarities to the last time I forcefully refixated there are still enough differences to make for interesting data#Like how the last time I had three in conflict did Not go well it was very rough on my brain - but this time was nice :D#Probably helps that the two-pair were kinda-sort from the same source so really I guess it Could be argued that it was just two in conflict#But I'm not counting it that way and since it's my brain and I make the rules that's what matters lol#The next set is one of the fixations you all saw the TV Guide for this week it's fine lol#The other - it's another video game but hmmm I might see about making fanart if/when I actually get to play it myself#It's very silly so I'm gonna hold onto it for a bit longer haha
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Im a hoe for the classics and by classics i mean popular x nerd trope,, so how about an Elu au with popular!Eliott and Nerd!Lucas đ
Voila! Here is a great classic trope! Thank you for the request, and I hope you enjoy it!Â
Find more of my Elu work on AO3 as @Book_Lover2001
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It was all because of a pen. A BiC to be exact; a round stic, blue ink, fine point, 0.8mm pen. Not quite technically a butterfly, but all the same in the matter of science.
The test was going to be easy. Multiple choice and long answer-- show your work, of course-- and Lucas had studied all weekend. He was on his way to acing the biology unit test. As Mrs. Rigaux began to unpack the stack of papers, Lucas reached for his backpackâs front pocket to find an empty space where his lucky pen was only moments before. Panic began to mildly set in. He just had it last class.
âImane,â Lucas whispered to his seat partner who held a stoic, yet slightly nervous look. âDo you have a pen?â She rolled her eyes at him with the air of a disappointed mother, before searching through her own bag and retrieving what he had asked for.
âAre you coming to the meeting tonight?â she asked him quietly, as she handed him the pen. He tilted his head, unsure of what she was talking about.
âWhat meeting?â
âThe meeting for the foyer?â she said as if obvious, before signing heavily. âThe one that DaphnĂŠ told you about? The student commons that weâre refixing? Dude, youâre honestly helpless. Sometimes I wonder if youâre actually smart.â
âHey,â he defended, but didnât take it to heart. She was always like this. âIâm smart.â
âThen whereâs your pen?â she countered with a mocking smile. Mrs. Rigaux began to pass out the sheets of paper, weaving around the class as it started to fall silent.
âI swear, girl, I had one. I must have left it in my last class or something.â A paper was placed forcefully in front of him as they were shushed by their teacher.
âDo I need to separate you two?â she tisked as she handed Imane her sheet. âNo more talking.â
When the end of the day came around, Lucas had already forgotten about his missing pen, although at the time of its disappearance he had been contemplating putting up âmissing personâ signs.
âLucas,â his name was spoken with a smooth tone as he opened his locker. Lucas was clutching his books to his chest as he pulled itâs door open, effectively hiding the person from his sight.
âEliott,â he returned in a similar voice.
âAre we still on for tomorrow?â he asked as if Lucas hadnât just rudely shielded his face from him.
âAnd what are we doing tomorrow?â he replied, as he attempted to fit all his papers inside the small space. Eliott had moved around to stand at Lucasâ other side, his back resting against the neighbouring lockers.
âYou promised to teach me chemistry,â the older boy said with a smile pulling at his lips.
âEliott, you are an L student,â Lucas brushed him off, shutting his locker in the process.
âDoesnât mean I donât want to learn science, and you are a really, really good S student-- the best I heard.â Lucas didnât know whether he wanted to punch him or blush; maybe both.
âI think youâre confusing me with Imane, but I will gladly set you two up for a study date if youâd like?â Lucas told him, beginning to walk away. Eliott followed like a puppy chasing after itâs owner.
âCome on, Lucas. I know you tutor other people, why not me?â
âThose kids are actual âSâ students, taking âSâ courses, plus I have better things to be doing than humouring you for an afternoon. Donât you have a party to plan or something?â
âIâm offended, my love, horribly offendedâŚUnless you want a party, then Iâll throw you a rager-- in your honour of course.â
âI donât âpartyâ Eliott,â he responded, shifting his backpack from one shoulder to the next. Lucas didnât like parties, or large crowds at all. He didnât like being looked at in the halls, or being passively judged by the countless people in Eliottâs circle of friends. Lucas preferred to stay at home with his books or his video games, watching random videos online until three in the morning.Â
The hallway was beginning to clear itself out the further they walked into the school.
âSticking around?â Eliott noted the direction they were moving in. Lucas looked at him from his peripheral vision. Sure, Eliott was objectively hot, but objectively a lot of people were.
âHey, man!â Someone greeted Eliott as they passed a group of first years. Eliott nodded at them but didnât break away from Lucas.
âIâm going to that foyer meeting for my friends. Feel free to leave.â
âSounds like fun, Iâm in,â Eliott shrugged. Lucas stopped walking, turning to look at him carefully, watching him with curious eyes.
âWhy are you like this?â
âLike what?â Eliott asked, tilting his head, his hands stuffed in his pockets.
âYouâre going to come to the foyer meeting⌠voluntarily?â
âYouâre going.â
âYeah, but--â
âSo Iâm going.â
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âI hate him,â Lucas told Yann as he flopped down on his best friendâs sofa. Basile and Arthur were stretched out on the floor, arguing amongst themselves about the Fifa game they were struggling to win.
âWhy?â Yann asked, leaning back against the arm rest. Lucas blinked at him, his jaw clenched as he tried to verbalize his feelings.
âI⌠I donât know! Heâs just so⌠soâŚâ
âHot?â Arthur offered, not taking his eyes off the screen. Lucas nudged him with his foot, earning a noise of annoyance from the taller boy.
âPersistent,â Lucas concluded. âHe wonât give up.â
âBut⌠you like him?â Basile asked, curiously.
âOf course I donât like him.â
âBut heâs hot?â Basile questioned.
âI guess, but that doesnât mean Iâm going to date him.â
âBut heâs also a nice guy,â Yann added, unhelpfully. âAlways helpful, cheerful, popular-- everyone likes him.â
âExcept me, apparently. Why do I have to like him? He walks around like the god of the school, just expecting me to⌠I donât know, fall to his feet like everyone else? Heâs always coming up with stupid excuses to see me, or talk to me. Every corner I take, Iâm surprised when I donât find him following me. Heâs always listening to me, even when Iâm purposefully talking absolute nonsense to bore him. He came to a foyer meeting today because I was going and then he volunteered to paint the mural for the common room because I mentioned how ugly it was and--â Lucas cut himself off, letting his brain catch up to his mouth.
âAnd what?â Yann asked, hanging on his last word.
âAnd I thought it was really nice,â Lucas spoke with a softer tone, surprising even himself. âI guess sometimes I get disappointed when heâs not at my locker waiting for me at the end of the day⌠like that one time he was sick and I was a bit worried something happened to him. Sometimes he leaves me these little drawings when heâs got football practice and canât make it. IâŚâ The boys were all staring at him as the realization dawned on him. âDo I like Eliott?â
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Eliott was talking to some girls, a horde of girls actually. They were all smiling and giggling at something that he said, but he looked completely unphased by their reactions. His smile seemed more focused on what he was talking about, rather than who was listening.
âUgh,â Alexia said, as Lucas and the Crew walked out of the common room. âHeâs so hot. I canât.â
âArenât you dating someone?â Lucas noted, watching the scene unfolding in front of him with an uncomfortable feeling in his stomach.
âSo?â she replied, waving off his observation. The girls all laughed taking off down the hall with a chorus of âgoodbyesâ to Lucas. Instead of heading to his next class, which would start soon as the lunch hour came closer to ending, he stood frozen like an idiot watching Eliott talk. The way his smile pinched the corners of his eyes the more he droned on about whatever was so fascinating. The way his hands moved as he explained something to the girls who so obviously didnât care about anything other than staring at his angular face and model-esque physique. The way that Lucas knew, even without seeing, that Eliottâs eyes were probably shimmering as he laughed at his own joke. None of it settled right with Lucas.
Before he could register what he was doing, Lucas was marching across the hall with purposeful strides. Without a word, Lucas yanked Eliott into the nearby empty classroom, ignoring the confused and slightly shocked faces of the girls.
âLucas!â Eliott spoke with a stern voice, completely caught off guard by the sudden and very unexpected action. Lucas had his arms crossed, his foot tapping against the ground as he glared at the popular boy with narrowed eyes.
âI donât know how you did it,â Lucas said, his voice low. Eliottâs face twitched, unsure of what was happening. There was a pause.
âDid what?â
âMake me like you.â Eliott drew back his head at the answer, his mouth curving into a small smile. âDonât look so smug, Iâm still trying to figure out when you altered the chemicals in my brain.â
âThe chemicals in your brain?â
âYeah, with your⌠pheromones! God, I hate you!â Lucas shouted.
âWell clearly you donât,â Eliott chuckled, finding Lucasâ inner turmoil utterly entertaining. Taking a breath, Lucas realized what he had admitted and what he had abruptly done, and he was mortified with himself. His cheeks turned pink with embarrassment, his mouth opening slightly only to close.
âIâŚâ Lucas began slowly. âI donât know what came over me. Sorry. Can we just ignore what I just said? Great, Iâm leaving.â Lucas reached for the door knob, but Eliott stopped him, his fingers curled around Lucasâ wrist.
âWait,â he started. âYou canât just leave.â
âWhy not? I said stupid things and now Iâm going to leave so we can pretend it never happened.â
âSo, you donât like me then?â The question hung in the air and it was as if his words were suffocating him.
âNo.â
âNo, as in you donât like me, or no, as in you do like me?â Lucas raked his teeth across his bottom lip as Eliott waited for his answer. His hand was still holding Lucas in place, and it was as if Lucasâ entire body was on fire.
âThe⌠latter.â Eliottâs eyes softened, his touch dropping from Lucas as he brought his arm back down to his side.
âWhat changed?â Lucas ran his own hand soothingly up and down his arm, as if trying to comfort himself in this moment of honesty.
âI donât think anything did,â he finally said. âI think I just lost my pen.â
âThe butterfly effect?â Lucas raised his brow, as Eliott gave a soft laugh. âI listen to you when you talk, you know. You mentioned it once because it was in a book you were reading.â All Lucas could do was look at him. He didnât understand Eliott, or why he does the things he does, or why he acts the way he acts. Lucas was barely processing the sweetest thing anyone had ever said to him.
âKiss me,â Lucas blurted out against his own better judgement. Something passed before Eliottâs eyes, as his smile grew into a genuine expression that made Lucasâ heart ache. Eliott stepped forward, drawing Lucas closer to him by his waist. Their lips were so close Lucas could feel the static between them.
âYou can change your mind.â But Lucas didnât want to. Rather, he tipped his head up, closing the space between them, wrapping his arms around Eliottâs neck to hold him even closer. It felt as if something clicked in Lucas; like a lock turning open with the right key, or the last piece being fitted into a puzzle. Eliott felt like something he had been missing, and finally the last code of his cipher has been discovered.
By the time the bell rang, they were breathless and reluctant to pull away.
âI have to get to biology,â Lucas sighed, running his fingers through Eliottâs hair.
âI have to go to philosophy.â They both made a face.
âIâll see you at my locker?â
âNow that Iâve seduced you, I donât need to stay an extra hour to wait for you,â Eliott teased playfully. Lucas, who had begun to move for the door, paused.
âYou waited an extra hour for me?
âMy day ends earlier than yours,â Eliott replied with a shrug, as he draped his arm over Lucasâ shoulders to walk into the hall.
âBut--â
âDonât feel bad, I didnât mind waiting,â Eliott said, dropping a kiss on the top of Lucasâ hair. âPlus, it actually forced me to do my homework when I was bored.â
âWhy are you soâŚâ
âPerfect? Handsome? Amazing?â Lucas was going to say stupid. Stupid for wasting his time on Lucas.
âSure,â Lucas gave in. âAll of the above.â As Eliott tucked him closely into his side as he walked him to his biology class, Lucas could already feel the eyes on him making his entire body tense.
âTheyâre all jealous,â Eliott whispered in his ear as they rounded a corner. âThat they never had a chance.â
âNever?â Lucas highly doubted that.
âNever ever. Youâre all Iâve ever seen, since the first day I transferred here.â
âNo pressure or anything,â Lucas muttered lightly. Eliottâs laugh rang in Lucasâ ear like a song that made his heart skip a beat.
âAbsolutely none, my love. Absolutely none.â
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